It is perhaps by conditioning, perhaps by virtue of my profession and the long time that I have spent in subjugation to the inflexibilities of the physical world. Perhaps not; perhaps it is my religious background or my disposition from birth.

It becomes apparent to me how different in spirit my past year’s readings have been compared to the approach of others, who seem energetic in pursuing ‘research’ not for serious inquiry, but as an ammo hunt. There is a very significant difference between Investigation for honest inquiry, where the answer is not predetermined, an ‘investigation‘ for apologetics, in which the conclusion is known from the beginning and the only objective is to construct a rationale of support. I have no time for the latter – all energies have poured into the former, which remains the more difficult to summon.